bonski’s box

During my junior year  in college, I was head over heels over this girl.  I was so in love  with her, she was basically the center of my world. Our relationship wasn’t official, we  sort of had a mutual understanding(yes, the cliched MU), being so naive and anxious of having a girlfriend for the first time(I bloomed late), I provided anything she wants and let her felt how she meant to me. She was the sun of my solar system. I was so blinded about what I felt for her that I ignored telltale signs  that she still wants her ex-boyfriend.

Then the day after our sem-break , she broke the news that she still wants to be with her ex, and she can  no longer reciprocate all the things I’ve been doing. Naturally it was a major major heart breaker, I was crushed I’ve never felt so miserable during that time. I went home listless, I didn’t have the appetite to eat that my father talked to what happened to me. When I poured out my misery, he laughed at me in a consoling way(I didn’t know there was such a thing), what he told me forever etched in my mind: "We are bound to fail, to get hurt especially with the matters of the heart. But the bright side is that, you learn to be stronger and hopefully  more wiser." It stucked till this day.

Why am I bringing up the past after all I’m happily married? It has something to with how "love"(this really is a strong word) has blinded a person I care alot. I thought she was over this person already as she isn’t treated as she should’ve been. And I know for the fact that she no longer wants to talk about him again. However, having talked to her again today, she was all in bliss, the smile and giggle so infectious I couldn’t help but reciprocate. It seems that they’re getting back together again. I don’t know this guy personally, but as any love-struck person would say:"I only see the good in you, damn the others for saying otherwise."

I don’t like to meddle with others relationships, maybe I was ticked-off because this is how I felt and behaved way before. I don’t want her to feel the same way I did, being a big bro to her(not related though.) Maybe she needs a big knock in her head to realize to thread lightly and exercise prudence. But then again, if she is bound to experience things like I did to be stronger and hopefully wiser, so be it then. Bottom line though, if she is happy I’m happy.

What happened to the girl I had MU? I was able to win her back but broke off right college graduation, I guess we weren’t meant to be in the first place.

So goes, the  battle cry of the newest drama/action show Heroes. The premise is that there are people who have advanced their genes to the point that they  started exhibiting extra-ordinary abilities. Upon awakening of their abilities, they are for the most part convinced that they are meant for greater things. Sounds much like X-Men don’t you think?

The question of how they were able to advance their abilities are still unresolved(as of Episode 11:Fall Out) but I think this isn’t as random as I think it is since most of them bear a symbol, which will be revealed on Episode 12:God Send(which I think the symbol stands for) Such show with lots of characters, most of them interconnected, needs each one of them to have a story, not just a blurred background. The show keeps you on the edge, as each end of the episode leaves a question waiting to be answered on the next episode.

The most lovable character I think is Hiru Nakamura which has the ability to bend time, as comic superhero junkie, he always wanted to be like the hero in his comics and wants to be play the part. Peter Petrelli, is a mimic who can "mimic" or copy the abilities of another "special" people, only downside is that the person should be in close perimeter. Claire Bennet, the cheerleader, who is basically immortal because of her regenerative capabilities, she’s basically the Wolverine of the show without the adamantium and sexier. There are others, but this three gets the most coverage as of this later stage of the show. And of course with superhero, comes a supervillain, a power hungry, insecure man named Sylar, who has the power to permanently absorb the abilities of others. The most mysterious I think is Claire Bennet’s dad, an ordinary human(I think), who works for as of yet unnamed corporation answering to as yet unknown leaders, is tracking all those people with abilities for purpose unknown(yet.)

The show is promising, and hopefully they’d get to build the foundation of the story so that next season(hopefully) the focus will be making good use of their abilities. And about the "Save the cheerleader, save the world", it has to be revealed as of yet.

We’re moving accommodation, to a new building with a better(?) facility than our soon to be former accommodation. Although, the soon-to-be former accommodation is old and broken down( the part of the ceiling collapse in our room, good thing my roommate wasn’t there), I’ve grown comfortable in it.

I spent the better part last night packing my things, and I realized I have so many things! I have lots of reading most of it reference materials printed, that I had no choice but to junk it all, since the new place is less than 3/4 the size of the soon to be former. The problem also is that my room mate is in vacation, and I have to take care of his things. I’ll be asking his officemates to get his things , the 29" TV , his table , etc since it won’t fit in the room.  I have lots of old clothes that I bagged, ready to be taken to this old clothes repository placed by the government in selected locations. For the time-being , I brought back my  books in the office, so that I won’t have to deal with them when we moving house this Friday.

Tired and anxious about the House move, hopefully we can finish it today.

Almost a year ago, my wife and I were thrilled when we found out that she was pregnant. Both of as couldn’t contain the joy that we felt, and immediately told our family and loved ones about the wonderful news. Unfortunately, it wasn’t meant to be. 11 weeks after we found out about the pregnancy, my wife underwent D & C(Dilatation and Curettage) because the fetus didn’t form or something like that. We were devastated, and my wife was traumatized by what happened. Although, now she’s recovered she still fears about getting pregnant again.

I never thought, my cousin would experience the same. She lost her baby when they found out that there was no heartbeat, almost the same number of weeks as mine. I know how they’re feeling right now and I can only give my support and prayers to them and hopefully in due time they’ll learn to accept what happened. Maybe it’s not yet time.

Last night I was mugged.

I was on my way home, after accompanying my wife to her accomodation, went the usual route. The street is lit sparingly, some place there isn’t lights at all. I have been confident going this road, as I’ve always have, but I’ve exercised caution of always looking behind my back.

This time I noticed two Saudis walking about 10meters behind me, although I ignored it ‘coz they weren’t bothering me, I nevertheless hasten my pace. That’s when they started calling me, asking for directions about a mobile street. I foolishly, disregarded any common sense not to accomodate this people and directed them were to go. This time I again foolishly stopped and pointed them the direction, they were telling they are not familiar with the place and asked if I can accompany them. I politely declined, and went my way. They were persistent to ask me to come with them to show the way, and this other guy was asking if I were alone, that’s when I realised my mistake. I told them just go that direction and hurriedly walked away. I was near my accomodation, and they were following me still, I took the wrong turn and went in the sidewalk closed by parked cars. That’s when they jumped at me.

I was horrified when the taller guy showed me a blunt pointed object while the other was forcing me to stay still and be quiet. I panicked, however since I was 20 meters from the accomodation I resisted. I was carrying my backpack and un-cooked pansit that I bought. Inside the backpack, was our recenly bought Sony W30 DC, and I don’t want to give it to them. I ran away, but they were fast they were able to get hold of me. And then… the tall guy swerved his "knife" at my side, I can swear I saw my life flashed in my eyes. However I felt no pain, he instead hammered me with his hand. It is then that I realised that this guys were amateurs, and fought with them. Since we were in the street, I saw cars about to pass I grappled with the tall guy to the ground. I thought I’m going to be hit by the car, and stopped when the driver saw that we were fighting in the ground. I quickly got up, and looked at the driver, as if asking for help but chose to ignore me. Luckily for me, there were already other people and cars about to pass that I quickly ran to my house which is just in sight.

Although I was shaking, I calmly open our gate and entered quietly. I looked at those guys as I was opening and closing the gate. And they seemed to be arguing about how they should’ve jumped on me earlier. Good thing for me, they were amateurs.

Morale:

1.) Don’t ever walk alone, late at night on a dark street.

2.) Try to stay as calm as possible, a clear head is better than a panicked one.

3.) Don’t rely on strangers, more often than not they’ll just watch you and won’t do anything. Make them as leverage though, they effectively distract muggers.