bonski’s box

Do you feel bottled up with all the things that you wanted to tell to someone, and yet you can’t? Have you ever wondered how things could’ve been between the two of you?  Have you ever felt so deeply to someone that it still lingers?

Imagine when one day, after 6 yrs she turns up in your mailbox and greets you. Bottled up emotions starts to flood your senses and confuses you. You both got up to speed on what’s been happening to both your lives. She still is stunning, and the sweetest smile as far I have imagined. She’s very happy with her life, her daughters, her family. The feelings you’ve kept for so long gradually fades into oblivion, as you inevitably realise how insignificant it is in the face of much more greater and benevolent feeling:That I am happy for her. She feels the same way too.

I’ve been able to tell her how much she means to me by simply letting it go. It doesn’t matter anymore. I don’t wonder anymore how things could’ve been between us, rather how things could’ve been without my wife. I couldn’t imagine growing old with someone other than her. The feeling may still linger, but it lingers only in the deepest recesses of my heart. There it will stay as a once but fleetful feeling of bliss, never to be felt again.